pulse it

okaaay tomorrow is work out day!!! well let's see if it works out. haha. i hope we can buy the freaking pulse mousse i want freaking shiny blue hair. =) wonder if it really works...8 to 10 shampoos! i'll have blue hair for 8 to 10 days!! yay. if it works out, i'll try 2 colours XD.

okay yesterday was weird. red, i feel so sorry for you. you just had to veet the forest didn't you? O__O i'm be too scared to try. when we buy pulse, should we get you a tube of veet as well?

your boyfriend is gay

wow. how would you girls feel if your boyfriend turned out to be gay? what if you're the reason he turned gay? what if your boyfriend chooses the hot boy you can never have over you?

the subject came up earlier, and i'm quite frightened. he IS a little..grabby when it comes to other guys. taking away the maybe once in a lifetime chances from deserving girls.....

waxing legs...other things he can do with girls. hanging out with only girls for a long time....

wouldn't youuu be scared? i am. i don't mind gay people....it's just that, what girl would want her boyfriend to dump her for a guy? ouch, ego-depresser.

it's almost school time!!! i change my sched. on the 31st at 230...i hope i remember that...

RED IS THE NEW BLACK. but never wear them during the evenings...you red little vixen.

all the stupid things you do

even though i'm angry at the fact that you do stuff like that, i can't help but forgive your sorry ass. =)

la la la

okay so angelyn and ashley went to the after party. very very jealous.

now that it's all over... we can all cry. until next time...XD

today was great, i was wrong

yay emcee...i hated the job but hey the party was good.

dancing!! wheee! i had such fun even though my feet hurted like hell. angelyn and ashley =) wheee. they're crazy i looove you guys. and mary anne! awww you can roll your body you sexy lady. i even got katrin to dance. yayuh.

dance dance dance

can't go to afterparty. mad.

=( i'll call everyone i love tomorrow =).

i love rick damsel. the end.

today is horrible, i can feel it

okay i just showered...i have to wait until my hair dries so i can do my hair...and oh gosh. i have to get ready and i can't help but think that something is gonna go wrong today. shit. TOT i wish it was tomorrow already.

timetable

buhdumcha. okay so i'm gonna look like shit tomorrow and i'm so not happy about that but what can i do? cry! that's what. oh a somewhat happier note, i got my timetable for school...and those losers at the guidance office made a mistake, but i'll let it slide for now.

okay so for 1st sem i have
calculus, world issues, physics 11, english, physics 12

for 2nd sem i have
precal (which i decided to take out), calculus .5, physed, english .5, precal .5 (meh math)

okay so i'll call on monday to see what i can change around here....

back to tomorrow, i'm scared and i'm ugly. fuck you beautiful people.

SYTYCD and AGT and PMS

okay so on wednesday, i watched the last so you think you can dance season 2 episode. the dances were cool. i loved the travis and benji dance. so cute. GYRATE. lol. okay yeah so benji won, which was to be expected. he was good. but travis was also good. he's so cute. i love travis! TRANJI! woo.

yesterday i watched the america's got talent finale. i thought the millers were gonna win. the crazy harmonica player, holy smokes. cole and ld miller. cool. but no, bianca ryan won. but yeah like come on! that's not unique, she's a singer! america's got lots of those. geeze, now we get a child prodigy with a hot voice. she could wait a few more years! what we need is a cool harmonica player with a cute brother! yes. haha.

okay so tomorrow is vian's debut. and i'm worried. i didn't go over the program at all with jsyl. and i'm no good at winging things. i hope people really don't listen to emcees. =) i hope everyone's hungry so that all they think about is food. at least ate jennet can do my make up. but she can't until she gets home from work which is around 4 or 5 and i don't know when vian wants me there. damn it. yeah as for my hair. i don't wanna hairspray it but i want it to stay! gah. damn it. i don't even know if i LIKE what i'm gonna wear. but you know what, screw it. it's not my night anyway, so why bother looking good.

fdhaiofhdaiofhdaif ahdifo dahfida damn it. i'm mad. nothing seems to be working in my favour right now. boo i wanted the millers to win and travis to win and i wish i was in the candles instead.

mr.smith is tall

OKAY so i'm done with grade fuckin 8 fucking piano. hopefully. i feel like crying! omg. i'm totally not confident about passing this exam. GAH. so yeah mr smith was my examiner. and he's like a probably nice scary tall guy. i'm so sad. okay so yeah for technique. i did my first scale well. but then he told me to play b flat minor scale. and then i was gonna play a b major formula pattern but then yeah that's not it! i played like the first few notes of the formula until yeah i asked him what it was again. and yeah after that he seemed so annoyed. i had to ask him to confirm things a few more times for other tech. shit. ah fucker. fucking arpeggios. lol. yeah so then i did my studies. the first one was good enough. the 2nd one, the super fast one sucked ass. i like blanked out. shit. and then i had to play my rep. songs. the memorized ones. gah. my first one was okay. i think. but then the 2nd song, the one worth the most marks. i fucked up there. like omg. as if! that's llike my best song! wtf i screwed that up? wahHH! but yeah i think i got at least a 10/16. but that's wishful thinking. and theeen my 3rd song was goooood. lol and that's the one that i suck at because it's so sloow. yeah good job lindsay, you didn't totally screw yourself over!and my 4th song was exceptional too i think. then ear tests. gaaah. my melody playback suuuucked. but i think i did okaay. and my intervals, i'm not so confident. i think i got a few wrong. i needed those marks! and then it was chord identifying. blah. might have got like 2 right or something. that's supposed to be the easiest thing! gah. i'm stupid. and then it was cadences. baaaah. i think the first one was plagal. i said the 2nd one was plagal. but it could have been perfect. but who knows these things? because i fucking don't. and sight reading went okay. might have got some wrong notes, i know the last one was but meh. and then yeah clapping, yeaaah i'm good at that. so at least i got 3 marks for that. so that concludes the worst day of my life.

i deserve an award for going through that trauma during my time of the month. i need my kisses.

a kiss for your thoughts

i ate like half a bag of hershey kisses today. okay so annalyn, kevin, and the little boy came over to my house today with their parents? like omg. i was still in my house clothes and our house was freaking messy. now i know why angelyn tells us to call 2 hours in advance before going there. okay yeah so they came all of a sudden. i didn't even know they knew where i lived! ah. yeah so tomorrow is my piano exam. i'm kinda scared but too lazy to practice. bah. i'll blank out..oh shit maybe i should.

after the exam i wanna go to vian's and do the program stuff with jsyl. i don't know if my parents would let me but it's worth a try right? okay yeah. soooo good luck to me tomorrow.

later beautifuls.

vian's 18

okay went to vian's bbq thing. food was goood. mary anne is doing better on body rolls! YIPPEEEE. i hope she doesn't drink later though. tsk tsk tsk. so anyway i read my exam slip thingy and it said that my exam is on wednesday at 2:44 (lol, wtf eh? 44?) yeah i thought it was at like 9 something. so yup i don't know.

jsyl is the other emcee. yay! she can do all the inbetween crap and say all the hard names. =)

amigo in a better place

okay i woke up earlier than usual, 830. i surprised myself. okay so i was in my room still half asleep and i heard my mom talking on the phone. she was talking to my auntie or uncle. so my cousin's dog, amigo, died. TOT he got hit on the street! poor amigo, he was such a happy and friendly dog! ahh he was so tiny. =( okay yeah so my cousin's boyfriend gave her amigo. when amigo died, they broke up! what?! okay yeah he went to the states with us too! just wednesday. and then what 3 days later they break up? what the hell? what happened there? ahhh amigo!

so today is vian's 18th birthdaaay! she's having a bbq today, i still don't know if i can go! i'm too scared to ask my parents. yeah. haha. so yeah her debut is coming up this saturday. and i'm panicking, i don't know what to say for whatever emcee stuff. and ahh the cotillion worries me. but they'll pull through, or is that wishful thinking?

gah.

make it work people

okay yeah so 2 nights in north dakota (fargo, grand forks). went to fargo first. went to west acre mall. bought stuff. we also went to the wal-mart there and gordmans. okay yeah. we stayed at hotel. my cousin's boyfriend came with us too. hah he's nice, but he doesn't say much, it could almost be rude. then we went to grand forks. went to columbia mall. yeah so just got back today. =) i got my stuff and my wax. so now this whole debut thing. mary anne is worried about body rolls, angelyn is worried about clothes (it's all about the face), and i'm scared about my clothes and the stupid program thing! how to you transition from one thing to the next and talk a bit so you don't sound foolish?! not sounding foolish is hard for me to do!

okay so the program is as follows:

1) introduce the emcees: notice that it's plural. i'm not sure if she is expecting bj as one too. it would make it easier. he can be funny while i read names! it works. but nothing ever goes the way i want it to. if it did, everything i want would be less than 5 dollars. so yeah i say who i am. HELLO MY NAME IS LINDSAY AND I'LL BE YOUR EMCEE FOR THIS EVENING. okay yeah i got that line. so now what? should i tell a story about vian? because i got none of those.

2) waltz-introduce the debutante and the cotillion: okay waltz. how do you start this? after the intro, do i just say AND NOW THE WALTZ! haha so lame. okay so introduce the cotillion first. i can say all the names except for 2 last names i get all tongue tied. and yeah there are names that i just don't wanna say. yeah the naming people thing is easy i think (haha if you like saying their names that is) but what do i say before that? and the debutante. that's supposed to be like a grand intro. so what do i say to that? AND NOOOOW HERE SHE COMES! i'm screwed.

3) call on mary anne for opening prayer : okay so yeah if i screw up her intro she'll whup my ass. ha. but yeah i guess it's easy to call her up. she has to do all the talking for this one. i hope she got her auntie to write it up for her. if not, we're both screwed as well as our meal T_T. which comes to, where do i sit? do i get a corner? do i eat at all? do i at least get a chair?

4) performances during dinner: okay! yeah so if it's during dinner, i won't be eating in peace AND i might be talking with food stuck inbetween my teeth. reminder: bring floss. so there are 4 perfs. so is that one after the other? because i wanna eat too, i'm giving her money, i should eat well.

5) salsa: do i have to say anything for this? THE COTILLION WILL NOW PEFORM THE SEXY DANCE...THE SALSA. it probably would have a better effect if it was a samba. but oh well. okay yeah dance dance dance. that right body roll thing mary anne talked about.

6) honourary roses and candles: i'm so screwed! i don't know what to say for an opening line for anything! IT'S NOW TIME FOR THE HONOURARY ROSES AND CANDLES? i don't know how these debuts work. okay yeah names lots of names. i think i can do it. if i say the name wrong, oh well, you know who you are. don't destroy the flow by not coming out because i said it wrong.

7) roses and candles: okay so whatever intro i say for the honourary i'll do that same for the normal ones. yup names. i know these people =).

8) modern: oo modern. don't know what to say for that. but i'll figure it out. i think i should go to vian's birthday thingy to figure it out. i hope she thought of something. mr.mark will be there because he won't be there for the debut! nasty old man! ha. okay dance. the sultry stuff. more body rolls and after that...

9) debutante's speech: okay i guess i should tell people to clap. it's the debutante after all. so does that mean i should give her a good one-liner? ah. damit. okay so after that the parents talk. and yeah i hope they don't expect me to say anything. AND NOW THE DEBUTANTE'S PARENTS HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY. lol. i'm terrible

10) open dance floor: yay it's the last thing i'll have to say hopefully. so yeah open dance people. i wonder if they want me to say anything about drinks. because it has nothing here.

the program is on nice paper. i'm happy about that.

kissy, kissy, don't throw a hissy...

okaaay! so i'm leaving tomorrow. yay! i saw lisa today! yay! she's not going to the debut =(. read over the program. last names are hard to say. lots of people were at practice. i was surprised. but not in the good way. i think it was too much too soon. O__O. okay yeah. so wow avoidance much? oh well, didn't wanna talk to you anyway. asshole.

ahhaha asshole. mary anne told me this perverted thing from team america. about the dicks, the assholes, and the pussies. omg. double meanings right there.

watched project runway season 1 finale yesterday. jay won. that was coool. when is 2nd season starting?

my exam is in a week. ahh. yeah.

yeah that's all. i'll be back, i don't know. but i'm not complaining. i'm finally leaving for a while. i wanna watch step up. sexy.

whatever - nakanomori band

okay i'm like so pissed off at my parents. more specifically, my mother. gosh she's so UGH! i swear. okay so last night, rox called me and told me all the cousins are gonna go to the beach today. okay yeah so i ask my mother which was a waste of time since HELLO she always says fucking no to everything. okay yeah so rox calls at 10, my parents thought i was still sleeping and yeah but they don't know that i'm quite the light sleeper. so okay, mother comes into my room and says "you're still sleeping? what time did you sleep?!" like get the fuck out of my room mother. you loser. lol. okay so yeah trevs calls too at like 2 and yeah i'm supposedly still asleep. and okay i decide to get at at 230. my parents don't even tell me that people called for me. like WTF, bitches. gosh. and yeah my mom doesn't let me do anything. gawd. she gives me a reason, plenty actually, to steal her fucking car. idiot, shouldn't have given me car keys if she knows that she pisses me off at least once a day. honestly. gAH i'm so mad. i locked my door so that mother can't come in. she didn't even put a fucking lock on my door when we moved, like omg. so yeah i opted for using a chair, works better than a lock, i think. the best part of my room is that i can sneak out so easily. my window is huge so i can just take the screen out and get out. i know how to open the garage from the outside and yeah i have car keys. SO THERE. gosh. piss offs. stupid traditional filipinos, always think they know what's right. WELL THIS IS CANADA and i'm not so sorry to say that many kids now have been influenced by canadians. hah i wish i could see mother's face when i steal her car. OH HO HO who is laughing now.

legally blonde

okay so i watched legally blonde today. i love that movie, it's friggin brilliant. the character ivanna is what i would call a weak character. i don't think the movie really needed her. what was her purpose in the movie? to become warner's fiance? right, so she was there pissing elle off but by the middle of the movie, they're friends. wow. does she REALLY need to be in the movie? was she there to motivate elle into becoming a better woman for warner? but warner's brother was in a magazine because he was getting married to a up-high kind of woman. she stated that that's probably the kind of woman elle should become. so why is ivanna in the picture? she's just an accessory, i think. okay so yeah harvard. which led to, what other ivy league schools are there. i'm a loser without a life so i decided to look upon this.

so the ivy league is an "athletic conference comprising 8 private institutions of higher education". it's in the northeast of the US. it used to represent favourite college sports team but now it no longer limits to athletics. it's now represents education, and are the US's oldest schools. so these universities are placed in the top 20 of the world's academic ranking. so they have the best financial endowment, class A students and faculty. ivy league uni's are 7/9 colleges chartered before the revolution.

so how about some unique info on the ivy league uni's?

Brown University. Located in Providence, Rhode Island. Founded in 1764 and was previously known as college of rhode island. it's the 7th oldest institution of higher education in the US. First college to accept students with different religions. Has oldest undergrad engineering prgram. Motto is in deo speramus (in God we hope). 2.01 billion dollars endowment. Holds 7595 students overall. There are 37 varsity teams. 143 acres of urban land. Admission is competitive with an admission rate of 13.8% Brown has an active on-campus nightlife. Many weekend parties in dorms or off-campus houses. Parties called "SexPowerGod" and "Starfuck". 12.7% of students in frats and soroities. 6 male frats (alpha epsilon pi, delta tau, delta phi, theta delta chi, sigma chic, and phi kappa psi). 2 sororities (alpha chi omega, kappa alpha theta). 2 co-ed frats (st.anthony hall, seta delta xi). 1 co-ed literary society (alpha delta phi). baptist founding religious affilition.

Columbia University. Located in New York, New York. Founded in 1754, previously known as King's College. Motto is in lumine tuo videbimus lumen (In they light shall we see the light). 5.19 billion endowment. 29 sports teams. 6th oldest insitituion of higher education in the US. Has 23 813 students. Angilican religious affiliation. 36 acres in morningside heights campus. 26 acres is the baker field athletic complex. the medical center is 20 acres. lamont doherty earth observatory is 157 acres.

i'll do the rest another day.

schadenfreude - delight in someone else's misfortune

okay, i'm mean i can admit that. but this is my freaking blog and i will fucking rant. mouth shut by the veronicas is damn good song at the moment. i'm totally bored of this. only i know what THIS is because i don't intend on telling anyone what THIS is. i'm only posting this for whole world to see so that maybe someone out there can relate. i'm sure someone can relate to THIS because the veronicas freaking sang the song MOUTH SHUT so it makes sense that someone else is feeling that way. THIS can relate to anything so yeah think what you want people. so yeah i'm totally bored with THIS. i never realized how THIS can be so annoying and boring at the same time. maybe i'm just pre-PMSing right now but that was my excuse the first time. i'm just not into THIS right now. all i wanna do is experience other THINGS and gah can't do that when PEOPLE tell you otherwise. you know all that hurting feelings crap. well i'm feeling pretty damn selfish right now and thinking about my fucking feelings. i don't know what to do because yeah friends yay. friends are nice. those who are more than that are trouble. TROUBLE I TELL YOU. if you don't plan on getting married until you're well into your 20's or 30's or whenenver you wanna get anchored down, don't get too attached to one THING or else you might find yourself unable to get out of the mess. GAH! why can't i follow my own rules here? because of all the mediocrity shit in the world. i'm an insecure bitch who have to do things so that people don't hate me. i'm sure people hate me but you know, one would prefer to have some friendly relations to people. wow, i'm so drama right now i could almost slap myself for getting pissed off at those who cry about trimming their hair. almost. so yes. i don't feel better yet so i'll continue. too all those guys who try to sweep a girl off her feet, make sure you know the girl first. it still annoys me. ahh. okay. yeah. i think i'm done for now. haha too much harrydraco stories. these fanfics make me wanna rethink everything sometimes. hah.

i can't believe how silly people can be. haha people, eye infections and contacts don't mix.

project runway rocks. SCHADENFREUDE! that's my new signature word. i'm such a terrible person sometimes. but yeah i try to amuse myself, try it some time? things happen because they deserve it right? karma as they call it. i'm sure everyone has been a victim of karma. so those who wish karma to kick someone's ass, wouldn't it make sense for karma to get you because you wished it to happen to someone else? maybe. so everyone, REJOICE. SCHADENFREUDE!

aww mary anne found me a dress to wear for the debut. that was sweet of her. thanks =). it's yellow, hope it doesn't rain if you catch my drift.

to all the sexy boys in america. hopefully i'll be there to check all of you out soon. ha. ha.

and you know neutral people? supposedly neutral, that is. take both parties into consideration not just the one you think will get the harder blow. it'll be hard for both, so if you say you're neutral, show that in your fucking actions or else sod off.

good night, bitches.